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[006] you blow it all with paranoia; you're so insecure you self-destroyer

[After the conclusion of this, there is a very worried looking Richie on-camera; wild eyes, twitching fingers, general restlessness - it's clear he's had some kind of shock and isn't handling it at all well.]

WILL SHE'S-

[Feed cuts out, only to click back on a few seconds later mid-rant]

- I FUCKING SWEAR I'M GONNA -

[Cuts out again]

[Private to Graham, only this time it's text]

WILL SHES HERE. SHES GOING 2 TRY 2 KILL ME AGAIN I FUCKING SWEAR. I NEED A GUN OR SOMETHING. I had a visit 2. From some guys who seemd 2 think I did something I didnt do. A few nights ago. Thought u should know.

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The fuck I do. CUT THAT OUT.

[More laughter! And then he starts coughing. A hacking, wheezing cough. The sound of heavy drinking can then be heard, and the wheezing slows. Then he rasps out the words,]

I remember you.

Congratulations?

[Pause pause]

OH. The fucking asshole who called me nuts. Hi, how ya doing? Crack any ribs?

[False bravado; he has ALL OF IT.]

No. Have any more fits of delusion?

I don't have fits of delusion.

[SO offended.]

Don't you? Then what were you in the midst of when I ran into you? Because you certainly aren't going to be able to pass it off as a psychic vision.

The fuck're you talking about?

[Not so much because he doesn't remember (he does) but because as far as he's concerned he had a COMPLETELY legitimate reaction.]

For one thing, the claim that medication can be used to treat mental illness showed vast ignorance in how these things work, getting that angry that I brushed against you in the first place, and failing to comprehend that I come from an entirely different culture, a different world even, most likely, than you.

...So I talk about modern medical shit and get pissed off 'cause you were gonna rat me out, you run around in a dress like you're confused about what you've got under it, and I'm the one who's a nutjob.

Another sign of your mental illness. I gave no intention of wishing to 'rat you out'.

And it is not a dress. It's a robe.

...No, you did. You said you were gonna go to the clinic.

[CLEARLY means the same thing.]

It's a fucking dress, Gandalf.

I work there. I was going there before I even saw you.

They are traditional wizard's robes.

Like hell you were. You didn't say that's where you were going until after you started calling me crazy.

So all wizards dress like girls?

I'm fairly certain I did, but even not counting that, it wasn't as if though I claimed to be going anywhere else before then.

I don't dress like a girl.

...Because you said it after you called me crazy. I remember.

[Whether or not it actually happened that way is irrelevant. It's how Richie remembers it, so as far as he's concerned it's fact.]

But...you do. You're not wearing pants, are you?

And after you kicked me and I began wheezing. I remember. Did it even occur to you that I was more concerned with myself than I was with you?

No, I'm wearing wizard's robes. They are the same for men as for women.

[...No. No it didn't. Consequently, he's just going to stop pursuing that part of the discussion.]

Well, it's a stupid dress code. It doesn't make sense. You're all...open. What d'you do about...you know.

I find it comfortable, and I don't see why you care.

I don't, I'm just saying.

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