...Like how I know I can get away with shit with Seth as long as I tell him what I saw He doesn't always believe me but he usually lets it go as long as it's not a girl 'cause he doesn't want me to be a nutcase either. Okay, I'll remember that.

I don't like needing you; I don't like needing anybody. I don't like needing Seth either, but I can't imagine not needing him so I try not to think about how much I do. It's why I hate being here so much; he's not and I don't know what to do with myself. Plus he's my brother so it's different; I know he's got my back. You...I'm not sure about still. I think you do too, but you're a girl so it's weird.

I don't want to talk about this anymore; it's making me feel vulnerable and I fucking hate that. Usually I hurt people who try to make me feel that way but I don't want to hurt you 'cause I actually like you.