I'd prefer not to die 'cause it scared the shit out of me last time, and I have no fucking idea why you would want me dead. But then again most people I think are trying to kill me have less reason so I accept yours as legit. Watch your back though 'cause I'll probably try to kill you first now I know you want me dead. Even if you're probably right on the sneaky and suspicious thing.

In my defense I can't be completely honest about myself 'cause it makes my brother nervous and then he wouldn't ever let me do anything. I know he's not here but I still have to compare everything to if he were 'cause I'm hoping this is all another nightmare I'll wake up from tomorrow.

No, I mean the raping. I don't mean on the ship.