[035] I turned to look but it was gone I cannot put my finger on it now

[notafuckingnut]

I hate this.

Just fucking stop, okay? Last time was fucking fine; I mean...it was a trip and a half but it was just a bunch of weird assholes. A genie without a lamp and a pink horse; that's...that's cartoons. That's fine. Just make up your fucking mind already, okay?

Did anybody else talk to him?

There were some other cool people this time around though.

[...girls. He liked them, at least.]


[PRIVATE to Castiel]

I want a TV. I'll do an extra shift in the greenhouse or whatever, I just need one. It doesn't need a bunch of extra channels, basic cable's fine.

[PRIVATE to Lua]

Did you see him?

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Private - Video.

[some_kinda_hero]

Mr Pink is really close, I think. To graduating. And it's just time to go. It'll have been four years this October. Pink will be my second Inmate I graduate and... [she sighs, leaves it at that. She's not even sure why she's telling him. Except for that whole stupid forgiveness thing.]

Re: Private - Video.

[notafuckingnut]

...so?

Private - Video.

[some_kinda_hero]

[She narrows her eyes at him, confused.] What do you mean "so"?

Re: Private - Video.

[notafuckingnut]

So what? People come back. It's not like you couldn't stay if you wanted. You're a warden, you GET to choose.

[it's a stability thing. He won't know what to do if the people he talks to keep disappearing. :/ ]

Private - Video.

[some_kinda_hero]

But I want to go home! You should understand, what with how much you miss your brother. Why do you even want me to stay, we're not exactly friends and we rarely even talk.

Re: Private - Video.

[notafuckingnut]

Then go home now. If your inmate's pretty much graduated already what's the difference?

[nope, not answering the question.]

Private - Video.

[some_kinda_hero]

[It's so ridiculous that she's laughing. She calms down with a sigh, saying:] Oh my God, you are something else, Richie. I'm not leaving until the job is done. Not all of us are here to do half-assed jobs or, as you said, sleep around. When Pink is ready, then I'll be ready.

And you're avoiding the question.

Re: Private - Video.

[notafuckingnut]

Why do you keep talking to me when you say you hate my guts?

[questiong for a question, Claire. And he really doesn't appreciate your laughing.]

Private - Video.

[some_kinda_hero]

[That shuts her the hell up. She moves her lips, nods slowly.]

Good question.

[And she cuts the feed. Take that!]

Private video >> Spam.

[notafuckingnut]

[nuuuu Claire you're a jerk. :/

Which would be why he's knocking on your door about as soon as he can get there. TAKE THAT. That'll show you not to actually answer.]

[some_kinda_hero]

[Her eyes narrow at the door in curiosity. She's not expecting anyone...and no way in hell it's Richie. He wouldn't be stupid enough to show at her door, considering how things went down the last time showed up at her cabin.

So, imagine her surprise when she opens the door and sees him. She stares, jaw hanging open. Chester immediately begins to growl and Mr Muggles barks a tiny, warning bark.]

[notafuckingnut]

[it's okay, he's staying in the hallway for now. But he's frowning.]

You never answered.

[some_kinda_hero]

[She regains her composure and pushes him back so she can step out and shut her door. She leans back against it, arms crossed.]

Neither did, and I asked first.

[notafuckingnut]

[He glances down at her hands, almost surprised, and that's mostly the reason he allows himself to be moved. He shrugs at the statement.]

Because I like you? Even if you stabbed me. And even if you've kind of been a bitch.

[for understandable reasons, really, but he hasn't quite reached that conclusion yet.]

[some_kinda_hero]

[She gasps and looks like she might slap him but at the last minute, she changes her mind and makes her hand into a fist at her side.]

Oh, hell no, we are not playing this game again! You ever want us to be on speaking terms again you need to stop blaming me and calling me a bitch and just own up to it already. That apology, what? that was for kicks? Castiel make you do it?

[notafuckingnut]

No, I...

[...fuck. This is not the way he saw this conversation going at ALL. He at least has the decency to look like he knows he made a mistake somewhere.]

That didn't come out right. I'm sorry it made you upset. I didn't...mean to? And I won't do it again. Unless you ask.

[sorry Claire, that is the clisest thing to a sincere apology you're ever going to get. At least he looks apologetic?]

[some_kinda_hero]

[She regards him, lips in a thin line and eyes semi-glaring.]

If I'm such a bitch, because let's face it, you call me that a lot, why do you still talk to me? You know damn well why I'm more prone to being means towards you than I am nice. You know damn.well.

[She's looking less angry and more likely to cry.]

[notafuckingnut]

I already answered that. It's your turn.

[please don't cry. He won't know what to do if you cry.]

[some_kinda_hero]

Because I'm trying! [, she snaps.]

[She ticks off on her fingers:] I want good memories from this place. I want to leave with as clean a slate as I'm going to get, good karma, and...

[she opens her palms, raising both as if to ward him off.] It's probably one the stupider things I have done, but you wouldn't be the first monster I forgave for the unspeakable things you did to me.

[notafuckingnut]

[quietly, with no small amount of injured pride.]

...I'm not a monster.

TRIGGER WARNING for anyone potentially read this!!!

[some_kinda_hero]

[Claire is speechless. Well, save for one word that she repeats with an increasing amount of incredulous-ness.]

What? What? WHAT!

[It was a good thing she didn't have neighbors anymore and partly the reason she was practically screaming at him.]

I'm sorry, but what the fuck do you call someone who rapes their friend?!

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[notafuckingnut]

[he visibly flinches, and when he replies he's agitated himself, shaking his head.]

No, that's not...You said...I thought...

You said it was okay.

I heard you.

[right? Maybe? He was CERTAIN before, but now, with her standing in front of him and screaming, he's not so sure anymore.]

[some_kinda_hero]

[She growls and stomps her foot.]

NO! No, I never said it was okay! Maybe I confused you before, but not once did I say I wanted to sleep with you that day. If stabbing you wasn't a sure sign, then the crying and screaming and fighting against you should have been a clear sign that I didn't.want.to have sex with you!

[notafuckingnut]

[he shifts from foot to foot, clearly uncomfortable.

It just makes this whole thing awkward when she's around; it's easier to avoid actual guilt when the victim's dead, after all, and while it was okay as long as they weren't talking about it...]

...do we have to do this out here?

[some_kinda_hero]

[Her smile, it's so fake it hurts.]

Oh, no, please, let's go back in the room it happened in!

[Her face drops, fast, and she almost says 'fuck you' but refrains. Instead, she storms off and calls over her shoulder:]

You coming or not?